Esoteric Christianity: My Testament

Losing God

The story of losing a parent isn’t the greatest to tell. But It’s the only way I can show you how losing a parent can send you into a spiral of your beliefs and losing your connection with God. My dad was vital in my life, and losing him was the hardest test of my faith I have ever done. It took 20 years for me to come back to God after losing him in the year 2000.

This all started when he had his stroke in 1998. He was getting ready to drive his school bus in the afternoon. That’s when my dad’s health really started going down hill. He lost control over his right side and he had blindness in his peripheral vision.

For the next 6–8 months, he started rehab to get his right side back. He couldn’t drive a bus or a personal vehicle for that matter anymore. Although, I was in Boy Scouts during the time and my mom worked evenings. So, He had no choice but to drive me up town. I was his eyes for stop signs and lights. They didn’t necessarily take his license away, but he also didn’t have to renew it for several years later. Actually, the month he died November 21st, 2000 He had to renew his CDL.

I still have his license in my wallet as a reminder of how much he was in my life and now I take him everywhere I go. Anyway, after rehab it wasn’t but 6 months later he had a collapsed lung and couldn’t breathe. He was a veteran and so we took him to the local VA hospital.

We were in the ER for a couple of hours and by the time the doctor could see my dad it was pretty late. We were all brought into a small room. I sat by the door to my left and my mom was across from me. My dad was on the examination bed to the right, and the doctor was beside him on a rolling chair. They had taken an X-ray’s of his chest an hour prior and the doctor was going over it with us.

He said there was a small mass in his lungs that could be cancerous. He then asked, I didn’t know that was going to haunt me for the rest of my life. I had forgotten this memory until I went through therapy and found out this is why my whole anger issues were a thing.

As I am working through my therapy, I was able to talk to my dad as If I were back in that room with him. I could tell him that I missed him and that I didn’t want him to die. I had relief that I got to tell him all those things that, as a 10-year-old, I wouldn’t have thought of. It was real closure.

Gaining Connections

I started gaining connections back to YHWH (God) several years back. One of the biggest choices in your life is to cut fluoride from your toothpaste and mouthwash. The pineal gland is our spiritual connection to YHWH. If the gland has been calcified, you will need to reverse that. As said in the Old Testament.

(1)“Balaam’s Third Oracle ​1 When Balaam saw that it pleased the LORD to bless Israel, he did not go, as at other times, to look for omens, but set his face toward the wilderness. 1 And Balaam lifted his eyes and saw Israel camping tribe by tribe. And the Spirit of God came upon him, 3 and he took up his discourse and said, “The oracle of Balaam the son of Beor, the oracle of the man whose eye is opened, 4 the oracle of him who hears the words of God, who sees the vision of the Almighty, falling down with his eyes uncovered: Numbers 24:1-4″

If your third eye is open, then you will start to see God in his spiritual form and voice. Once I started healing my pineal gland, God started talking to me. Taking me on a new path, the path back to him and rebuilding the connections. Little did I know that several years later, I would be in YHWH’s good graces. The chapter’s homeopathies and Old Testament will reference these marvelous findings.

Continuing the road of connections. I started gaining bibles, if you want to further your relationship with God. The best way to do it and read the letter from him to you. The Bible, is the living word of God. It is part of the trinity of YHWH. The trinity consists of the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. The Father, “God”, resides in the third heaven. Which will be the final heaven and earth age for us. The Son, “Yeshua”, came to earth and pathed the way for disciples to bring his children back to him through Christ. The Holy Spirit, “the heavenly Mother, the original formation of YHWH.” As said in the New Testament .

(2)11 “I baptize you with water for repentance, but he who is coming after me is mightier than I, whose sandals I am not worthy to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. 12 His winnowing fork is in his hand, and he will clear his threshing floor and gather his wheat into the barn, but the chaff he will burn with unquenchable fire.“ Matthew 3:11-12″

The Holy Spirit was in the beginning, she has filled the people who have written the Bible. The Bible then has the Holy Spirit and is live. You will always learn what God is doing in your life when you read the Bible. It will always be different every time. Even in the same verse, causing the Bible to be live.

Coming Back to God

Several months after my therapy, God was calling me to pray to him. I felt the presence of him wanting to talk to me. So, I started praying, asking him what he wanted me to do and show me the way back to him. That led me back to the Bible. I hadn’t opened a bible since before my dad passed. Considering that I was only 11, I didn’t fully understand the Bible during that time.

Starting this was a whole new world for me. I honestly didn’t know where to start. I prayed some more and God led me to a remarkable church. I had been to church before. My dad was Catholic and I was baptized and confirmed as Catholic, but, like most young Christians, during my elementary youth. I didn’t know what baptism really meant and when I lost my faith, I didn’t care anymore.

This new church I was drawn to is non-denomination. Which is great coming from one of the strictest religions ever. There are several great pastors in this church and I have a relationship with each of them. Once I started in church, God really started speaking to me.

I am now taking classes and Christian Leaders Institute, working towards my ministry certification with a certification in Life coaching with an emphasis on spiritual connections. This book is the starting process of my walk with God, the spiritual connection we have with God, and how it’s being severed. My goal with this book is to help bring you back to God and be spiritually sound with God and in your life.

Baptism

Religion is something I will teach about in this book. I’m not a fan of religion and what it stands for. Some people think for you to follow Yeshua, you have to be part of a religion. This is simply not true. Religion is a cult which is part of being in a “government” so to speak. I will offend many Christians with these words. But Yeshua came down to earth to separate those who are religious and those who are Christians.

Religion is the belief that you have to obey the rules of said religion to get saved and go to Heaven. Yeshua came to earth to tell us that we only have to accept him as our lord and savior and ask for forgiveness and repent our sins to get into Heaven. As I am reminded every Sunday. We are broken and sinners. We will continue to sin until the day we die and go back to our father. But it’s up to us to keep our sin talley down. Every time that you realize you have sinned, acknowledge it and ask for forgiveness. If there is one thing I can give you in advice and you take it is that God is gracious and will always forgive those who ask for forgiveness.

That’s quite the difference between Religion and Christianity. Since my reinvite from God back into his grace, I am attending a non-denomination church and attending Christian Leaders Institute, which is also non-denominational. I am also set to get baptized again at my new church.

I am excited about my new journey and I hope this book will be a good reference for you on your path and journey back to God through Yeshua Christ.

My way back to Yeshua

After my therapy and reconciling that my dad’s death was a test of faith, which I failed miserably. I was able to get help and start talking to God again. With his gracious forgiveness, I can continue with my relationship with him. As of this, He is calling me to do ministry for the lost that have their connections broken.

I am going through ministry training and working on a certification in life coaching. I am emphasizing on spiritual connections with God and helping others back to the patch of Christ to be in God’s kingdom. I study the Bible most nights, take classes, and read anything that is related to the spiritual connection of God and how to help fix it.

I am not saying that I am perfect. I am far from this, we are all broken and will continue to sin until we leave this Earth and go be with God. We are all learning every day to be human, and forgiveness is so easy to ask for. I pray that I can help as many lost souls as I can back to God. Because when God calls us home, we will want to be in his new Earth without sin. We will want to be with him because it’s his love that brings all of us together. His love to create each one of us.

Continuing the Path of Light

I last added to this testament on January 22, 2023. I have since been down a path that I didn’t imagine I would be down. Since my mother’s open-heart surgery, a lot has been shown to me. Through prayer and determination, I found what God wants me to do. While she was in the hospital, he showed me through others and researching that our Divine Mother was snuffed out of the church. She’s in the Bible if you know where to look for her. I reference her in this post.

The truth is difficult to find, but with prayer to our heavenly father, you will get the truth. He showed me everything that I asked for clarification on. Once I knew about the name Yeshua, I prayed asking for more wisdom on the topic. He did just that. I was given and abundance of information which led me to Esoteric Christianity. I have to say, though, Esoteric Christianity was in front of me this whole time. We use christopherus curriculum and Rudolf Steiner the father of Christipherous lectured about Gnosticism and Esoteric Christianity.

After learning more about the new topics, I continued praying for more wisdom, and Yahweh showed me Sophia. Rudolf Steiner actually has books about Sophia in his archive link above. The first real book I dived to learn more about Sophia is Yahweh the Patriarch: Ancient Images of God and Feminist by Erhard S. Gerstenberger. This was my introduction to Sophia (Asherah) our heavenly mother.

The next book I started and currently reading is Esoteric Christianity: A Tragic History by Sean Byrne. This goes into more detail on the history of Esoteric Christianity and who changed it to the current day Christianity we have now. All of this came from praying and receiving from Yahweh. Knowing this information now, there is no way for me to turn back. This is too deep of a problem, made to look away. I will continue doing God’s work and showing the path to the light that one needs to find if they are brought to it by Yahweh and Sophia.

I hope you found this blog post informational and helping by me sharing my testament. If you ever find yourself in the darkness, all one needs to do is Pray to Yahweh and he will give you what is needed. May all beings be happy!